I have blown it!

I have blown it more times than I would like to admit. In fact I would rather not talk about the ways that I have blown it when in comes to representing Jesus with my life. The ways I have blown it would say I am not worthy to serve Him. They would indicate Jesus is not a part of my life.

Yes, I have denied Him more times than I want to admit.

Peter may have denied Jesus with words but I have denied Him with my actions and It’s painful to know I have let Him down.

John 21 however, shows us that Jesus is about restoration and restoration is not as much about what I have done, it is whether or not I really love Jesus.

If I really love Jesus I will get back to serving Him after I have blown it…. I will not wallow in self pity.

If I really Love Jesus, it will not be woe as me all the time… woe as me just means I’m in love with myself. To love Jesus means I will hate the fact I let Jesus down, then repent of what I have done wrong and receive forgiveness from Him.

Its at this point Jesus does something that blows my mind… He restores me back into fellowship with Him, and places me back into the position of service I was in before.

Yes… Jesus lets us have do overs.

I am thankful for that restoration, I am thankful for a God who forgives me when I’ve blown it and wants me back doing what He has called me to do.

I no longer need to admit I have blown it… I just need to love Jesus more than these…